It has been more than 2 months since I last wrote a blog post. It was with mixed emotions that I found myself moving back to Indiana on March 14th. Things did not work out the way I expected them to in Georgia and I in some ways felt that I was returning home with my tail tucked. I never allowed myself to connect with Indiana. I never allowed it to become home. I never gave Indiana a chance. I was uncomfortable in my circumstances and in my desperation to run away from the discomfort, I never allowed myself to be content in knowing that I was where God wanted me. When God finally answered my years long prayer for “deliverance” I took the opportunity to run to where I thought life would magically be easier. The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence. I loved some aspects of Georgia, like the warmer Winters, but I also missed the gorgeous Fall foliage, lightening bugs, Spring colors, somewhat cooler Summers, and the lack of bugs in Indiana. More than anything, I missed family. I loved being with Kiowa, but I was isolated and I started to realize that I needed to return “HOME”. Yes, HOME. After 27 years of living in Indiana, I never considered it home. Now, I return and acknowledge that maybe I am a Hoosier. Maybe this place called Indiana is my home and I am now content enough to say that I will never leave again.
Sometimes, we need to leave in order to know where we belong.
Sometimes, God gives us what we want in order to make us realize that what we want may not be what’s best.
Sometimes, we need to trust God and allow God to work in the discomfort.
I made some awesome memories in my 10 months as a Georgian, but I am finding contentment in where I am right now. I am a Hoosier. Indiana is my home. The grass is NOT always greener and GOD ALWAYS knows better than we do.
Patti Burris 